I was adopted at the age of one. I spent the first year of my life in an orphanage. As a child I never experienced much love or affection and have attachment difficulties because of that. I lived through a traumatic childhood with multiple instances of sexual abuse between the ages of two and 15.
At the age of 14 I was hospitalized for the first time for a suicide attempt. At 16 I became pregnant and married the following year. I ended up leaving my husband due to his alcoholism and violence. I later married again and due to his drug addiction and abusiveness we separated.
I cycled in and out of hospitals where I would spend two weeks at home and four in hospital. I experienced at least 25 suicide attempts throughout my life and have had several breakdowns and many different medications. I have been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, antisocial personality disorder, depression, and Asperger’s.
Despite the trauma I have experienced throughout my life I have come to see the cup as half full. I feel my life has molded me into the strong and resilient woman I am today. I use my strength and positive attitude to impact the lives of those around me. With the help of CMHA HP (Canadian Mental Health Association Huron Perth) I have begun to access more programs in the community and have become more involved.
The encouragement from my support network aided me in becoming a participant of The Local and I have since become a co-facilitator for groups for adults and children. By accessing supports such as CMHA HP and Al-Anon, I have come to understand that I am not alone in my experiences. I have learned the importance of finding the right support system and the importance of finding the right team of professionals that understand the type of support I needed.
Despite the pain and challenges I have faced throughout my life, I hope my story inspires others to not give up and to trust that tomorrow is a new, better day.